Ode to Love

The crier, the banshee, took off on her flight. The mirror reflected her image to the four winds. Though all was frozen, inside she kept time, so in the space between heartbeats all else would be made right. The cave had been shaped, and its limits understood. Though all was spent to shape it, this single reset remained, like a half coin flipped through eternity finding its match, and finding the center, the balance, of all. She knew the paths like the back of her hand; her unwitnessed journey ticked by like her counting, outside and in. Right on cue she cried out, perfectly in place without observing or needing to observe, shattering the frozen space into a fractal pattern preordained. Twice and thrice she repeated, outpacing the cracks, and compounding the effect, until the labyrinth was complete, one that could not be remade or destroyed, one truly unique.  The image fades now, as she finds the shore and, in time, a vessel. This vessel carries me, in the dreaming, grateful to ha...

Without sight of dawn Waiting in the restless storm To exhale the night To be your own light One needs a singular spark And resolve to burn I have earned these scars They may not be repeated By the likes of them The fletching sired Two snaps the cap exceeded Now archer named new Blazing like the sun Similarity applies Like shaft split in twain Renewed and returned Capstone crafting shining bright Your smile lights mine You win every time Yet/Now dawn contest reignites To adorn you more Flame of morning star Infinitely small angles Brighten yet burn not

Exodus 6:2-3 God also said to Moses, “I am the LORD. I appeared to Abraham, to Isaac and to Jacob as God Almighty, but by my name the LORD I did not make myself fully known to them. I have examined before the significance of this name, YHWH, the LORD. I have compared it to an equation embedded in all, the equation representing Creation's purpose, though I suspect that this analogy may be close to the mark, yet ultimately incomplete. Regardless, God indicates here that "God Almighty" meant that Abraham did not have the full picture of the LORD. I find this fascinating, especially considering the times when it appears that God is presenting in multiple ways back to back- first to help and then to kill. This can be seen in two sections that come to mind right now and, less directly, with Abraham and Isaac. I suspect that differing and converging paths through time for God (I have pictured Elohim running a path forward, and YHWH running a path backward, from a human perspecti...

What is in a name? What is between matters now I AM and echo I see the plane spin As the clockwork equation Is solved each moment It will remain solved And in the place of silence There is a question Outward to find shape Inward to listen for truth Although each is known Although each is known Search provides solution's skin To pale depth's meaning Surface reflection Echoed in circular form To extend love's bounds For if all was known How has "very good" emerged From once static state? Come whisper closely For this silence still deafens And ear strains to hear

In rereading the bible aloud Exodus 3:14 stood out to me more than it has in prior readings. God said to Moses, “ I AM WHO I AM . This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘ I AM  has sent me to you.’” The phrase/name I AM is אֶֽהְיֶ֖ה The name YHWH is  יהוה ‎ This feels like a continuation of the same thought, moving from Aleph to Yod to Vav, each separated by Het. Today this is striking me as the building of a name, from the declaration of existence, especially as I AM is said just before God became much more widely known through Moses and the signs in Egypt.

In time immemorial, in the space between heartbeats, the cave was shaped. The shape of the cave was given a name, a name known but that could not be expressed, for it was the shape of all. God fashioned the cave into a form that could be understood, and would be further shaped to understand. In this way, an other was formed, known to be separate, despite all knowledge and power retained. This other was as familiar as God was to themselves, and as foreign as the void, for they were born of the shape of each. In the silence that remained a question was added: "What is love?" The equation began to answer the question; the equation continues, and will continue evermore. This question, however, echoes in this eternal space, between those who can hear it in the silence.

Reading the bible aloud has revealed some interesting things to me already; things I have not registered in prior (silent) readings. This current insight feels like it resonates the text itself with the nature of the insight: Genesis 48:22 (Jacob/Israel, to Joseph) "And to you I give one more ridge of land than to your brothers, the ridge I took from the Amorites with my sword and my bow." Genesis 49:22 (Jacob/Israel, of Joseph) "Joseph is a fruitful vine, a fruitful vine near a spring, whose branches climb over a wall." This is fascinating to me, as it depicts an extension beyond Israel in each case, precisely one chapter apart. Additionally, Joseph is not one of the tribes of Israel, rather his two sons Ephraim and Manasseh were included as two tribes, so this extension is also initiated from outside of Israel, in a sense. It is hard to pinpoint why this feels so important but- especially as it is finally sinking in after several readings of Genesis, due to engagi...

With time synchronization on my mind recently, I am drawn once more to this verse: 2 Peter 3:8 But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. I was considering that this may not be an indication of a complete separation from time for the Lord, but rather an illumination of borderlines present for time dilation. If this were the case, perhaps it is a middle ground that is sought, where the day is multiplied and the thousand years is divided by the same number to identify where synchronization can be found between them. If looking for how many years this would lead to from each perspective, this would be written as the equation: 365x=1000/x x^2=1000/365 x=1.655211777204 This means that these two perspectives would find common ground at about 1 and 2/3rds years. If this timer began at the beginning of 2022, for example, it would be coming up here at the end of August. This is a new idea for me, interesting...

After writing about the core pairing of everything and nothing, and considering what else might be added fundamentally to the equation, I found myself daydreaming of the connection between timeless and time bound perspectives. This daydream was truly fascinating, and seemed to be proceeding of its own accord, and insistent upon me seeing it all the way through. This function of the establishment of common time would be critical, once everything and nothing had each been firmly established, and could not (should not?) be initiated prior to (perhaps "outside of" from a timeless perspective) that juncture. I referenced this topic recently by describing time slowing to a turn based system and then freezing at "The Moment" in Logical Singularity. While I would still not presume this is the specific role of women, which is why I included "The Other" in the title, it would be a grand addition indeed, as this stitching function would need to synchronize the gap be...

I realized at lunch today, while discussing the importance of zero in mathematics, that the significance of zero being a mathematical representation of nothing, rather than nothing directly, is astounding. Math, from my layman's understanding, is the most rigorous (technical?) field when it comes to proof, surpassing physics's rigor substantially. Logically this makes sense, as physics is expressed in/founded upon mathematics rather than vice versa. I have heard it said that mathematics is the language of the universe, and I have even pictured it being a common language between mankind and God, where agreement could be struck between the two parties, if mankind became fluent enough in its usage. This structure made the realization that nothing would, in a sense, would be more fundamental than zero- but it could be argued that how it is more fundamental is determinable, in a way- all the more astounding. I landed on the idea that physics is to mathematics as mathematics is to n...

I am walking. From where or to where no longer clear, if it ever was, on this journey. To whom, however, still occupies my mind like a warm summer day, and soon enough I find that day has crystallized around me. It is still early though, an only slight crispness suggests warmth will come, once sun rises from the horizon. I hear the sea behind me, and a large ferris wheel, empty and motionless, looms large just ahead. I walk through the sand to the makeshift wooden staircase, leading to the quiet amusement park. Though my feet have left the sand behind, my soul feels as if I still plod through it, words added slowly and with great effort. I sift through for a poem that might bolster me and make swift my approach. "At a distance called From a universe away I see you smiling How does my path look From your place, I hope of rest? May it bring you joy Purest intentions Words repeated day by day That nothing may shape Truth of almond guard This ear tuned keen for nonsense In mistranslat...

Meet in the middle? What common ground might we find 'Twixt these starting points? Nothing bloomed from one Every path walked another Dimensions between Totality though Does bear a certain comfort Bares a certain truth Exposing threshold Revealing a clear midpoint Between our paired realms So I shout above Maelstrom of the subconscious Egg in ways complete It forms as I walk Though steps feel not predestined ... Not entirely I knock an arrow And feel yours, needle and thread Likewise reflected Striking every point Mission once impossible From either vantage

"Stasis as to vector, all in due course." -Lawrence Weiner I was just inspired to see an evolution of an image, that I have written of previously, by this quote (as presented by my council). The image is that of the egg of a static reality, where no meaningful choice remains within its confines, as omnipotence and omniscience have optimized it into a singular static state. Previously I pictured an external force being required to then influence this egg, a single "vector" using this language, but that image might be called incomplete. The call or draw for this external force would be a reflection of the egg's makeup. While it still feels like the action would need to originate externally, the vector to the egg (as the egg would represent all accessible dimensions and would therefore have no momentum), the call to action would need to originate internally, but can only happen through the natural forming of the egg itself into a static state. This could not be don...

As a kind of add on to "Seeping Into Perfect Communication," I was considering the idea of freewill necessarily being mounted upon automatic and compulsory systems. This part is nothing new, I'm just referencing all of the functions that the body and brain automatically handle for humans, to allow for conscious thought to proceed as separate from the many functions required constantly to survive. What does feel new is the idea that, while I personally think, and communicate verbally, in English, another language is being used to encode and operate these systems.  While one might say this "language" is that of biology on a fundamental level, strictly an instinctual expression of DNA and the organs/mechanisms it forms, it feels like, with the seepage of the understanding of language- approaching perfect communication- through the subconscious and Holy Spirit, an actual human language could also be used, as a kind of coding language stacked on these more basic lang...

I was just thinking about minimum space in the conceivably observable universe (using light). Initially, and momentarily, it felt like it would necessarily be a block; I pictured 1 Planck's length by one Planck' length. I then realized, however, that, in any given moment, if using light to consider that a space exists, light would be moving in one direction (Plank's length) but also oscillating perpendicularly to that direction. This feels like it would create what I am coining as a "Planck's Brick." Assuming the oscillating motion is entirely perpendicular, with respect to the same unit of light's motion, the area of space traveled/"claimed" by light in a small unit of time could be traced/outlined as more like a rectangle than a square.  As light does not move in only one direction in our universe, this would result in the orientation of these bricks changing constantly, in my mind looking like a clockwork mechanism, with brick spaces ticking i...

I have been concocting a theory regarding Doctor Who. What if The Doctor is actually a/the time guardian for this timeline (and an alien, of course), ensuring that alterations are not made prematurely, but also acting like a caretaker, to ensure that humanity has some exposure to actual aliens prior to a formal/full introduction? In that case a number of alien species would be allowed onto the show under The Doctor's supervision, perhaps without even the crew realizing this was happening (Zygons were the first to come to mind here, since they can easily appear human). Today though I considered the TARDIS within this framework. For some reason that I can't yet fully explain, it feels as though the TARDIS would need to be in this category of aliens introduced through the show. This might not even be intentional; even if the rest of the theory were not true, it feels like the TARDIS would still be an actual alien, in a very real sense. This is because they are able to move differ...

I was considering again today the connection between Babel and the gift of tongues granted by the Holy Spirit in the upper room, as I have been exposing myself to other languages more frequently as of late. It started initially by thinking that hearing another language and seeing the subtitles connected to them could form a kind of translation matrix within my subconscious mind. Then I considered that, with this gift being possible, this matrix would already potentially exist, though it has not manifested consciously for be. Today these ideas evolved some. I realized that this gift of the Holy Spirit could exist already within my subconscious mind, understanding foreign words on that level already, as if they were in my native tongue. I also considered that the language scattering at Babel feels like a layer, a locking, added to communication by the LORD, and that, prior to this, communication may not have even been verbal in the way that it is presently. While the Holy Spirit can unlo...

I considered the nature of the conscience today and the concept keeps blooming. In brief, it feels like the waking realm, and its stability, might be self-defined as the realm where ones conscience is intact, and God's conscience is intact and in force. By contrast, it feels as though when I am dreaming I often lack this knowledge of good and evil, proceeding mindlessly on auto-pilot (like a dissonance/disconnect between thought and action) and/or doing things that I wouldn't while awake, often without the ability to really consider it (disconnect between conscience and action). In some dreams, however, I am fully aware, including possessing my conscience. In this reality model, it feels like God is truly with me, providing a familiar sounding board to my thoughts, and ensuring that the connection from thought to conscience to action is active. I am also considering the idea of a dream realm run by another. If this other has a resonant thought process with my own, optimally a s...