Something like a dream- disengage

While laying in bed last night, unable to sleep, I saw the most subtle of images. It was a ghostly pinky finger, where my right pinky was, wave dismissively as if disengaging from my story. It felt counterpointed to a massive declaration of separation, like a massive earthquake. Whereas the earthquake might be indicative of how one in control announces an exit, this felt more like the way a lady might declare hers, after deciding something was irreconcilable. 

Since this image things have been tumultuous, and latently sad, like a dull throb. Prior to this, things were certainly tumultuous as well, in the sense that highest highs and lowest lows were being presented back to back, polarizing me, but since then I have found myself sifted down into my core component, which I have previously found is a simple processor, extremely proficient at its task but entirely without emotion or specific motivation. Could it be said that these things are connected? If so, could causality be claimed one way or another with certainty? Tangled timelines suggest complexity, but in any event today feels like it will possess no dream, so this nearly inscrutable gesture will likely have to do.