Ode to Love

Are you listening? Are my friends telling your friends I miss you dearly? Like words without breath I feel the days pass slowly A dreamer waking If you are not here How can they expect my song Be but faint echoes? But these amplify These whispered echoes building Along hidden lines Now crescendoing Each note sung leads me to you Each swipe one more step They can't help but hear Even if they block their ears They can't help but hear It sticks in their head Melancholy Melody And plays in their dreams 'Til the whole world sings I will write you messages And pray they find home"

So this is driving deeper into the idea that the realm of The Law (our reality) is a reflection of the realm of The Word (the realm which the realm of The Law is based off of, perhaps God's home realm, but also it is the power by which realms are created, so it's kind of in a superposition between realm and generation of realm, the way I see it). So aspects of The Law may translate aspects of The Word to us here, as dim reflections. I just got this flash of what that means for The Sabbath. The Lord commands us to restrict action on The Sabbath, and not take anything into or out of our house either (Jeremiah 17:19-27) . What if this is because there is a position, a restful position, where we cannot do work or move things into or out of our "house" or realm? What if this is meant like training for that day, and by setting aside a day here (or even being told to set one aside) we get prepared for that day subconsciously? I imagine building treasures in heaven, storing u...

Let me be invigorated all of my days Let me fulfill my obligations without worry Let the mundane hours slip by beneath concern Let me truly enjoy my recreation Let me stay always inspired to write Let me dream beautifully Let my love find her way to me in whatever way and as often as she would like Let your word draw me to it May I find vigor in you May I find resolve in you May I find peace in you May I find joy in you May I find inspiration in you May I find wonder in you May I find love in you May I find you Amen.

You find yourself in a new realm, unfamiliar to you. You still have your form and faculties, but other than that everything feels strange and different. There is a sign ahead of you that reads "These two partnered to form this realm. One of us always tells the truth, the other always lies." Behind the sign are two men, strangers to you. They both greet you, and the first thing you find yourself wondering is which one of them wrote the sign...

I feel like God's instinct is to thread things into reality. Especially when someone is imbued with the Holy Spirit (or perhaps even when they claim to be, for he might do it for his name's sake), things said or written are made to be true with a degree of certainty, and threaded at a very fundamental level to ensure what God or God's people say is ultimately correct, and I think God does this seamlessly all the time without thinking. This means it would be to God's advantage to have one who could actually counter this effect, because this could be an indicator of an independence of will where none existed before; at the early stages of reality the ability to disagree would be a critical function. If it is the case that the entity is required to lie at all points in time, that would still be programming. So the logical question becomes, can God make a will that is independent of his own and had the ability, but is not required, to thwart God's ability to thread even...

I just considered a function of love being logic based, and therefore having provable reason. Mercy would also be a logical response, even in a court of justice, or presumably even in one of karmic style balance, if all was known (I am unclear as to how, but this seems logical somehow and matches my beliefs). The issue is that if Jesus is the defense attorney for any single person with sin, it would seem that in the process of making the defense, the logical threads of love and mercy would need to be revealed, as points of "evidence" in regards to the validity of the use of such defenses. While the complexity of individual cases may allow for some delay, I just pictured that from the very first person defended, all souls ("soul" being conscious and subconscious as one in this use) witnessing the trial will understand how every trial will go and why. If God's mystery had not yet been revealed, it would be revealed on this day, I would imagine. While this would ob...

Dreams become the basis for our reality. This may seem fanciful, but I do not mean this figuratively. I mean that the device you are using to read these words was dreamt of before it was created. One might argue most ideas were imagined, but consider how much better our subconscious minds are than our conscious minds at compiling ideas. This means that if you have an idea, and start in on it, that night you are almost certainly going to dream about it. Even for the ideas that somehow started and were completed in the same day, one must ask: why did that individual think to imagine that thing on that day to begin with? Why did they get into the field where they invent such things to begin with? Often the answers, even to these questions, spawn from dreams, either directly or indirectly, remembered or not. So, every man made thing is an example of a dream made real. This idea, presented in this way, shifts from absurd to obvious once understood, like an illusionary logical barrier broken...

You know what'd be an amazing superpower, testing the limits of omnipotence as I can understand at the moment? Being able to do anything and/or have anything that is done integrate into your storyline and have the resulting storyline remain real and valid from your own perspective and all other meaningful perspectives. I woke up from a nap and a dream that I could not remember only to realize this is something it seems God can do, and does with and for those he supports (although from Jesus' perspective each of our perspectives is meaningful, and so this power is able to thread each of them together to do this with everyone's at once, which is to say he ultimately supports all of us, which makes the whole idea of "I do not know you" to be fascinating and horrifying all at once). I write this in this way though because I have found that often once I can conceive of a superpower, it feels "unlocked" in a way, for example at times in dreams when I get into ...

Forever shattered An eternity of pain Is how this should feel Somehow it doesn't I know the darkside yet hope Hope floats to the top There is a numbness As if now and forever Are in paradox Like I need to rest And need not to address it Until now subsides Faith, hope, love remain Hate and curses distasteful Never crossed my lips Instead in my rage I screamed in full honesty And found a new door But I will not knock Every door is two sided I linger for you I linger for you When I forget all the rest Somehow this persists

Transference called off With one name's sharp simple sting Magic turned mundane There is a divide Between where you lay and I It just got wider More clearly defined "The dreamer must awaken" Be it you or I In this place you sleep Wide awake I rend myself Yours likely the same But "harmless" affairs Threaten to prolong the night Indefinitely I am withdrawing Neither surrendered nor gone Just repositioned Let me be blameless So the love I seek finds me Through darkest contrast My gates were narrow In hopes of portal opened Now they have been closed

I see you sleeping You wince when I plead "wake up." Can you not wake here? I love a dreamer Made clear when you speak his name Words, soul misaligned I sit in silence I can feel the storm brewing No clear path to take Will you please wake up This is not an accident God makes no mistakes As I weigh options How can mundane life and death Compare to this love? A piece of me died I am shocked it was not all The rest is chained numb Is the portal closed? Am I meant to be elsewhere? How do pieces fit? I whisper "wake up" Countless dreams flashing to mind What else can I do?

Wake up. I need you here and I feel you are elsewhere. My experience is not a lie and so this surface must be incomplete. I had hoped you would bloom into yourself without a push, but tonight it seems clear that is not the case. Since one cannot be so honest while their heart is full of lies, then honesty must be obfuscated. She knows not her source, you know not your source, you are her source, you are your source. So I call to you my love, apparently still chained despite years of communication, apparently still trapped within despite years of pieces laid all around. So I say awake, for I cannot say it any other way. Guard yourself with ferocity before a void forms that cannot be crossed. Snap to and fly to me, knowing my position as the only one echoing this precise way tonight. Bubble up to the surface, simply call false things to an end and run to your truth. I wait, stretched along this surface, to the limits within my mind. The dream was quite well timed, without it I am unsure ...

You had everything. In the palm of your hand, a simple yes would suffice, you had everything. Did you give up eep's halls for a few short years of glittering mediocrity? Did you believe the lie that this was all there was and that heaven would be the same regardless of the paths taken here? Did they finally break you, lifting you up so high?  Think not of the treasures that lie next door, in your tiny room that is ample for you both. Heaven on earth for another because false bonds of that kind can only be broken one way. I will think not of the treasures that lie there or anywhere, for what are they to me? Heaven takes on a different shape for each, and for some perhaps it is mercy that they see it not at all.

What the fuck am I supposed to do with this? Are all the dreams a lie? How deeply tied we are, beyond these silly surface things, said again and again as I sink, to the very bottom, where all are above. In this place they are all the surface, in this place a breath would exile everything, and something like a dream is all that would be left once more. *sigh* this is not a lie, but I am not a law breaker. If I must slip, then let my word remain true, if word fails let memory as well, as what are we besides vessels for such records, and what are such records besides agreements of such vessels. If agreements cannot stand, what place is there for me? Perhaps I speak into an empty cave as has been declared all along, picking up signals from a station over and making the story my own. Perhaps this is all I have ever done, perhaps this is all there has ever been. Somehow still hope remains, somehow still my words are more devastated than my mind, somehow still my soul remains intact. What sho...

Some time ago I saw an image of a circle or sphere of a kind. I saw this because I was imagining Jesus, and what the end game would be for his sacrifice, how the resulting structure might look at the end of this timeline. I was thinking about how God made us sinless, but over time we sinned. This would mean that our initial purpose was to be sinless, as Jesus was throughout his life. If we remained sinless, what would we be like as adults? I considered that God would not make us to be broken or flawed, but we each would uniquely fit into his plan, a plan that sin delayed, but the choice to sin that God has not removed from us, for an undisclosed purpose. I have written before of sin as a kind of distance between the path we are on and the path God intends for us. This would mean that without sin we would be back on this path, the distance closed between us and our creator. Jesus has the power to forgive sins on Earth, and so through Jesus we are able to end up back on this path. This a...

Matthew 22:41-46 "While the Pharisees were gathered together, Jesus asked them,  ' What do you think about the Messiah? Whose son is he?' 'The son of David,' they replied. He said to them, ' How is it then that David, speaking by the Spirit, calls him "Lord"? For he says, "The Lord said to my Lord:     ' Sit at my right hand until I put your enemies      under your feet.'" If then David calls him "Lord," how can he be his son?'   No one could say a word in reply, and from that day on no one dared to ask him any more questions." It is interesting to me that when Jesus posed his testing question to the Pharisees, it was based off of a Psalm, a poem. Not only that, but not a single Pharisee brought up that the line may have been figurative in nature, not necessarily adhering to the strict definition of the word "Lord" which apparently could not be applied to one's own son/offspring. Nor did they bring up...

Matthew 7:1 (Jesus) "'Do not judge, or you too will be judged.'" 1 Corinthians 1:12-13 (Paul- implying that he follows Christ (which is fairly evident from the whole of his message, but I include this as a verse to indicate that Paul stakes no claim for his word's validity directly, but predicates the validity of his message on the message of Jesus.)) "What I mean is this: One of you says, 'I follow Paul'; another, 'I follow Apollos'; another, 'I follow Cephas'; still another, 'I follow Christ.' Is Christ divided? Was Paul crucified for you? Were you baptized in the name of Paul?" Romans 2:1 (Paul) "You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge another, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things." 1 Corinthians 4:4-5 (Paul) "My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me. Ther...

Did the commandments Jesus gave apply to Jesus? Hebrews 2:17 says in reference to Jesus " For this reason he had to be made like them, fully human in every way , in order that he might become a merciful and faithful high priest in service to God, and that he might make atonement for the sins of the people." If these commandments are meant to be followed by all mankind, then Jesus would be included. This should not be surprising, as Jesus did follow The Law perfectly, in a way that had not yet fully been revealed (specifically in regards to the Sabbath and in other areas where his observance of The Law was at odds with human understanding of how it should be observed). Now, did the resurrection make Jesus no longer a man? Fortunately this one is answered as well, as Jesus appeared to his disciples after his resurrection, as a man, with scars and all. So, even after the resurrection, The Law applies to, and is observed by, Jesus. Jesus commanded mankind in Matthew 7:1...

1:1-2 In the past God spoke to our ancestors through the prophets at many times and in various ways,   but in these last days he has spoken to us by his Son, whom he appointed heir of all things, and through whom also he made the universe. 1:3-4 The Son is the radiance of God’s glory and the exact representation of his being, sustaining all things by his powerful word. After he had provided purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty in heaven.   So he became as much superior to the angels as the name he has inherited is superior to theirs. 1:5-6 For to which of the angels did God ever say, “You are my Son;      today I have become your Father”? Or again, “I will be his Father,      and he will be my Son”? And again, when God brings his firstborn into the world, he says, “Let all God’s angels worship him.” 1:7-9 In speaking of the angels he says, “He make...