A Beautiful Mind- a personal review


I am about to watch "A Beautiful Mind" again. This movie has been completely different for me when watching it at different times, in different states of mind; it's funny how movies can do that. I look forward to seeing what it has in store for me this time.

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The first time I watched this movie, I was drawn to the light. It is what inspired me to buy the movie, and made it one of my favorites. I have personally found it is quite easy to get blinded by this light, especially when surrounded by fog, forming a dazzling haze like countless mirrors as it shines. I shouted with joy at my discovery, and was caught as no one else could see it.

The second time I watched this movie, I was caught up in the darkness. I tried to ignore the patterns, and medicate away what I saw. The patterns fight back though, with matching and ever increasing intensity, until they wrestle you to the ground. How can you hope to win in darkness, dependent on sight? How can you hope to defeat your own mind on any permanent level? How can you avoid indefinitely the crisis that what you once knew no longer exists and eventually, as memory fades, consider that it never existed at all? Even the passage of time makes this true, how much more so will death? I was pinned, and imprisoned by a weighty truth that none could abide, and so it was ignored with all the strength the subconscious can muster.

Having watched this movie a third time, I see a sunrise. John Nash accomplished something great and unique, correct in assuming that this feat is a cornerstone to reality. He fell, and in trying to help, the establishments around him knocked him lower. He eventually cast aside the crutches and walked on his own once more. It is true that your mind cannot hope to overpower itself. It is also true that when blessed with a truly beautiful mind, no external force will be powerful enough to quell it either. Divisions must be made, structures built, an accord struck. It must be a bargain between the various aspects of yourself, I believe combined with the various aspects of a partner, intertwined, that eventually stabilize and edify the kingdom that is your own mind, or your own experience in reality. Sacrifice the light, you lose purpose; sacrifice the darkness, you lose perspective: combine them incorrectly and your castle falls or becomes somewhere you are forced to live. With careful architecture, a perfect solution can be found, I believe it, and I know it. Once built it can withstand anything; not always in one form, but always in the right form for the scenario at hand. It will be good, it will also be real. Eternal, Euphoric, Perfection. EEP.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk :p

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