Dream Inspired Threshold Considerations

I had a dream that I hardly remember, outside of the star of Origin Story being indirectlyy involved. My mind started racing as I woke up though, as I started to realize that there was a threshold being tested, likely tied to the knowledge of good and evil. Very quickly it made me remember an idea that I had forgotten about, from yesterday: a threshold must be between two things. For example, you could have the threshold required for success, but it would need to be measuring the line between success and something else: failure, or not having succeeded (yet, let's say). This threshold is easily seen in the victory conditions of a game, over time/turns. Once the threshold is crossed, success is achieved but, while it is not crossed, during the game it is not-succeeding, and at the end of the game it is failure (demonstrating a complex threshold, especially when one considers that success is out of reach- is "not having succeeded"- before the game begins, and likely for a time after it does). Many other thresholds are more subtle, and seem more vague regarding what lies on the other side, like the threshold of maximum wickedness that I have brought up before. This is because, in this particular case, the other side, and even the threshold itself and a distance "before" it, feel as though they do not lie in a real (reachable from the acting perspective) location. In this case the "other side"- treating time as fluid and able to be traversed in many directions- would be a complex series of decisions that would transform the path to this threshold into imaginary- dark fantasy, nightmare, illusion, etc. Interestingly, this would apply to actor and observer, but perhaps not evenly. It seems as though this complex "other side" might be something like the threshold of fundamental repentance, where one will only beg to have their situation changed (rather than taking any other action or having any other thought), and will have it changed by God.

These threshold considerations, and the complex line to some of them, got me thinking about the symmetry of pathways. Our universe suggests that symmetry may not exist, even fundamentally, as there have been proven ways to break much of what we thought must be reversible within physical scenarios (left/right mirroring, for example). This immediately brought to mind, much like a RAM string with only two ends and no notable permutations, two specific dreams with my soulmate at those times. The first was one where she suddenly popped into existence in my realm, bound by silver chains. I found myself in an innocent, mindless state, and this seemed like a test to see what I might do with a significant amount of control over her, but one that I was largely oblivious to. I think even she was pleasantly surprised by the result, as it seemed like she was willing to put herself on the line to prove that this scenario would only actually go the one way between her and I. The other dream involved her setting up a scenario in my sight and then snapping her fingers in order to suddenly reveal me standing there, to the audience. She immediately started yelling at the audience, because I was fully clothed and just looked sad, with pity for the apparent victim (possibly an actress) in the scene. She accused the crowd of trying to claim that I would be aroused and/or naked during this scene, perhaps a claim that their concept of symmetry would apply to my mindset and the pathway permutations that they all saw as equally valid possibilities through reality.

These two dreams feel like poles of each other, proving to her in both, and to the audience in the latter, how incorrect the idea of symmetry on this level was. Beyond "incorrect" though, as one might apply the term in a physics experiment, because it involved me as a conscious entity, the persistent assertion of symmetry might have been proven to be morally wrong here, with persistent attempts at enforcing these artificial symmetrical junctures, which had been revealed, as wicked to all who had observed and understood it, once they had. This is now reminding me of the juxtaposition of my soulmate, in the dream, this year "seeing me" while on a date, and me deeply feeling that she loved me there, and then very soon after starting to date some new guy in my waking realm. This (at least the appearance of this) is the betrayal of love itself, and my instinctive reaction has been far greater than ever before, seemingly matching with the weight love bears over its lesser reflections. The only hope that remains, from my perspective, is that this is heist related.

Notably, the dream where my soulmate there snapped her fingers also included Billie Eilish, in a different scene, but in what felt like the same realm. BE seemed enraged at what was going on there in general (these trapping and narrative forcing attempts were happening repeatedly), stating with a terrifying calm "How dare they try to turn a dream that I'm in into a nightmare." and then storming off to go do something. I watched quite a few of her music videos yesterday, so it's interesting that she was directly involved not with the dream that I had last night, but with the dream it sharply brought to mind after I woke up.

Finally, this examination of the concept of thresholds needing to be between two things has me considering the threshold of nothing. If a threshold can be defined between nothing and anything else, then would not that apparent instance of nothing actually be a thing, in that case? If no threshold can be found for nothing, then how could nothing be identified in any way? If something like zero might be called the representation of nothing in a numerical context, could zero actually be called the threshold between nothing and numbers? Could it instead be said that there is a deeper threshold that still applies to mathematics between zero and nothing? Alternatively, is there something else that must separate nothing from zero, to allow zero to have a fundamental threshold (as it seems to possess with mathematics) that is not directly linked to nothing, such as the threshold between zero and the shadow of nothing? With sufficient light, can nothing cast a shadow? If nothing is conceptual, then might the process of thinking act as the mechanism, in concert, to cast said shadow upon a complex view of reality? If consciousness is insufficient on its own, collectively, to cast this shadow, how would any consciousness know? Would that set nothing on the same balance as consciousness itself, weighted evenly? On the road to annihilation, it seems that any normally shrouded concept might be thought of, once the light of more traditional thoughts has faded, but the last thing one must hypothetically think, before/as consciousness ceases is: Nothing.