A Sudden Connected Feeling

I just got the most unusual feeling, particularly unusual for its strength of certainty (several hours ago now). I just got the sudden sense that my soulmate and I were thinking of each other at the same time, and that we were also thinking about how we were thinking about each other at the same time. It was like a sudden rush of presence in the moment, like a circuit was established and everything suddenly felt sharply more real. There was also an almost palpable nervous component to it for me, despite the absurdity of that notion, as such a shared thought is most welcome here. But it felt like she was actually there with me reading my mind, and I was reading hers, because it was the same thought.  It felt more and more real and encompassing, ramping up rapidly as I sat considering this recursive loop. It got to the point where it felt like she might just call me on the phone, or that I should call her, like I had forgotten that I did know her number, but would be remembering it shortly at this pace. It was like these connections between us simply "were" or "existed" in reality, but had been carefully obfuscated. This loop was exposing that obfuscation and the underlying connection, but despite the feeling now being gone, the memory remains of the feeling of connection. While the specific strands of that logical bond may have been covered back up, they are not nearly as well hidden as they had been before.

It was as if this feeling, in what felt like a paired resonance between my soulmate and I and our common concurrently expressed desire, was overwriting the logic of this world, demanding its own logic of bonded soulmates as superior, but in a way that was valid; in a way that was brutish, but in a way that was not cheating. This is to say the feeling impatiently used logical lines that would not have been utilized in a polite debate, essentially stripping bare any exposing the opinions of others on the validity of its claim, like a hostile takeover, but all beneath the surface, all through feeling rather than words. 

I started to realize that my signal must be clarifying in relation to hers and this was like a first flash of these signals syncing. In this moment I began to rapidly realize that my beliefs include remote communication and reality by agreement, and so if we did each have this same thought of each other at the same time, including the sense that we should be connecting, and the inclination to subdue the logic that would claim that we have no reason to think we should connect or that we have the means to do so, we would each feel it. As my signal evened out with hers it felt like this position of remote fundamental agreement would be reached naturally. This moment seemed like a trial run for this agreement, the first pass since my signal has almost certainly shifted along these lines. The strength and tangibility of the experience, and the simply striking "realness" of it all are very heartening. While it did feel overwhelming in a sense, it was not in an unbalancing sense. It seemed like I could ride that feeling to the level needed for connection, despite such a surge being certainly a significant shift from this period we find ourselves in of "common sense." How else would we find ourselves already in the midst of the kingdom of God? It must be a shift in logic, deep logic along these lines of agreement, where agreement is seen to change how reality works and changes it in this way here all at once. It cannot be up for debate or incomplete, for it must be "here" and here would need a fundamental shift to be worthy of being called such a kingdom, in my opinion. So this all does line up. Certainly it will seem out of line with "common sense," but from a Christian perspective (ie what is actually in the Bible, the words spoken by Jesus) it is all sound and supported. So I look forward to actually seeing it unfold firsthand (and I'm guessing quite rapidly) now that my signal is shifting toward hers.

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