On Visions

So I was just thinking about that time I was suddenly elsewhere, as if vividly dreaming while awake, and I saw my soulmate in the cabin on the beach. Since I can't find the post, in brief I had just laid down to sleep when suddenly (well before falling asleep, like a minute after laying down) I was on this beach. I sensed she was there and I saw a cabin; I ran toward it and she came running out. The whole experience was entirely first person, entirely tangible. As soon as we hugged (first contact) it ended and I was back in my bed, wide awake now.

While the experience was not necessarily deeply insightful or anything, though it did carry a very strong and clear message in such a short span, I'm thinking this was actually a "vision." I was recently rereading the prophets and consistently they describe visions in this way: ~"I was hanging out and suddenly I was somewhere else and different stuff was happening."

To use an actual quote:

Ezekiel 40:2-3

In visions of God he took me to the land of Israel and set me on a very high mountain, on whose south side were some buildings that looked like a city. He took me there, and I saw a man whose appearance was like bronze; he was standing in the gateway with a linen cord and a measuring rod in his hand.

I just noticed in Daniel that instead someone showed up where Daniel was, and Daniel was the only one who could see him, but everyone else ran away for reasons they could not pinpoint (Daniel 10), but the overall sense is that these vision are not just picturing events as though watching a movie, but rather that a "vision" is experiencing something firsthand in a way you cannot directly reconcile with what you were experiencing before or after- like teleportation or plane shifting. 

So in retrospect, maybe this was not some vivid dream, but was actually a vision as I did suddenly experience it firsthand while awake. As such, this may have been a gift of The Holy Spirit that I disregarded, because the gift was so in line with what I deeply wanted: a direct tangible connection again with my soulmate. It makes me think about Matthew 7:11 "'If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!'" Does it make any sense to believe this experience was not of God because it is what I wanted? Would it make more sense to believe I can teleport or plane shift myself firsthand, while awake, where I'd like, to see what I'd like? Personally I believe the answer is no, but it has taken me some time to reexamine the scenario with such a lens as to even consider this possibility. Technically this seems to be inadvertently blaspheming the Holy Spirit, but almost in the way that a child might- honestly not registering that something seen was of The Holy Spirit, not understanding the nature of a "vision," and instead just basking warmly in the events seen and taking them for what they are without concern for continuity. So now that I have recognized the possibility, I say this was of The Holy Spirit. If such a slight cannot be "forgiven" and sin/forgiveness are seen as pathways walked, marking the distance between one and God, it could be that Jesus cannot walk the path of this particular sin for me. It feels as though doing this would technically be an unwelcome advance, as this specific sin is essentially saying "no" to God; it feels like to forgive this sin (Jesus walking to you rather than vice versa) would be like mind control, so it would not be "you" that was forgiven, but someone distinctly different. All that said, it seems reasonable that you could just walk back down this path yourself when you realize your error; any other sins associated with this one would need to be addressed independently, I would imagine, but that can be done in the usual way once this unforgivable sin (again, cannot be adjusted but must be removed- the path must be walked by you) has been reconciled. 

Personally in this case I do not think there have been any other sins involved with this one; the event was heartwarming and pure and kept isolated for me from really anything else. I ask for forgiveness of those other sins if there were any though, and keep my eyes open for a swift reconciliation. O.O