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"Answer Me." So I Speak

Love weighs heavily A load felt most in absence Singular absence Why burden me so? You had to know of its weight That grows with distance The stream bears witness The river the accuser Tidal wave, verdict This is my answer Such a singular burden Love is my answer. You know of my pain You have expected this claim You know it rings true What would my life mean Had I never glimpsed this love? Hollow, so hollow. This doubled edged sword Sharpened each night, plunged at dawn When she is not here You wanted to know These sharp words pull no punches Still, I worship you 

Micah (prophet)

1:4 The mountains melt beneath him      and the valleys split apart, like wax before the fire,      like water rushing down a slope. 1:5 All this is because of Jacob’s transgression,      because of the sins of the people of Israel. What is Jacob’s transgression?      Is it not Samaria? What is Judah’s high place?      Is it not Jerusalem? 1:6-7 β€œTherefore I will make Samaria a heap of rubble,      a place for planting vineyards. I will pour her stones into the valley      and lay bare her foundations. All her idols will be broken to pieces;      all her temple gifts will be burned with fire;      I will destroy all her images. Since she gathered her gifts from the wages of prostitutes,      as the wages of prostitutes they will again be used.” 1:8-9 Because of this I will we...

The Familiar Question

Lasted 8 seconds I feel the familiar crash Now like a dismount Annihilation A topic so often glimpsed Steps into the ring Unconditional The truth of my love for you Inherent? Imbued. But what of failure? If you are out of my reach Irrevocably? How could one persist? Would I even have a choice? How could I want one? It represents life Persisting for you like this Like a dream come true(?) It feels a pure end As I could not witness it With or without me So know that in love Only in its completeness Do I seek its path

Crystallized Β€

The quicksilver tongue Reminding me share dreams And specific heat As false prudeness fades I hear the equation build Perspective shifted Addicting chaos None to agree to stem it What would be the point? The question echoes Beyond these sensual caves To an ear cocked up So the dust in dark silence Curious from his corner Spies on the revelers Combining to more Along paths they cannot see And pitch forgotten Unlikely pairing Kept separate for long enough To mix opposites So spill my secrets But choose your audience well For walls drool and drip 

The Dragon of Not Being With My Soulmate in Full in This Realm

It seems like reality is moving in a kind of cohesive pattern right now, like a dream would, to present messages and tools that resonate with this subconscious structure I have in mind. Now in the light of this subconscious communication framework I have outlined, I am wondering about "fighting dragons" in this world. In the original post the idea was to identify a problem here, call that a dragon in your dream, and then the subconscious would gather information here and turn that into tools to use in the dream. If we are interwoven as thoroughly as I think we are, and God has given us dreams for a purpose, likely as a demonstration of how things echo between realms, would that echo not resound back to this realm as well? So in this way perhaps my "dragon" here is not being with my soulmate in full, a dragon I have named for some time now. It seems like my subconscious has been gathering information in my dreams related to this fight for me to craft into tools here ...

The Man Who Fell in Love With A Book

Move with intention The ghost of the wanderer Coalescing here Right where you left me Falling in love with a book Wishing it to life The best on the shelves From my perspective perfect Seen even while blind Could this be called faith To ignore the library 'Till my partner comes? Senseless to proceed Without wisdom grasped in full Carried forth with me So I structure halls And hang up the Christmas Lights While still in this cell I finally found you Who could bid me stay or leave Until you find me? So the Bard muses "I fell in love with a book And sang it to life." 

State Dependency- the mind unlocked

Somehow I don't remember anything of my dream. I remember having one, maybe being a little happy about it but I can't be sure; then I lost it as soon as I woke up. In trying to process the dream however, an idea has been seeping into my mind, one that has been building and coalescing and stitching together for some time. I am familiar with the idea of state dependency from psychology classes, where the state that you learn something is the optimal state to make use of what you've learned. Examples given were if you went to class high, you are likely best off taking the test high; if you do a task consistently in the morning you might have less success doing it in the evening, etc. The concept focuses mainly on major brain chemistry shifts, but it got me thinking about the man who lost 90% of his brain. I read a story, which seemed true anyway, about a man who lost 90% of his brain. This happened slowly, over many years, but doctors only saw it after the fact, and could not ...