Regarding Starry Night and Non-linear Writing

Regarding my writing, and specifically the writing of Starry Night, which I wrote to be possible from a scientific, biblical, and experience perspective while still remaining hopeful and magical, I have noticed an interesting pattern in my thoughts and output when writing.  As I write I pause when typing certain words (like words of degree- "perfectly," for example, then I switch it to "flawlessly," stuff like that).  I'll also do the same and rethink a concept, or throw one in (like in this story where the wormhole/teleport trip took virtually the same time, but did not take exactly the same amount of time on Earth vs. going to Orion Prime, and did not scale linearly relative to the distance between the points)

Later in the story I discover why, as my concepts start tying together.  It's like my subconscious brain has a low touch filter in place for me, that pieces together where I'm going with something, and knows the key structure that needs to be in place, so it warns me when I'm on the cusp of destabilizing the structure before I have consciously conceptualized the whole structure.

The way this works is that I generally type fairly quickly, thoughts just becoming typed words.  Every so often the stream of consciousness dries up.  I now take this as a sign that the source of the stream (my subconscious) is on a slightly different path from where I am, so I stop and find the stream again by reconsidering what I am saying.  It is usually just a bit different than what I started to think or type the last time, so I pick it back up and continue.

In the end I find that by following this stream, stuff I said at the beginning ties in neatly with things I say in the middle and the end, like it is logically valid even when dealing with complex matters like time travel.  I recognize there will always be some gaps, like I fail to mention that these off world colonies could have started well before the light year gap between them and Earth, they just couldn't do anything detectable by modern means until after the invention of time travel, so that they could remain hidden. I usually leave these extra bits out of the story, usually only making 2 main passes- one for writing, one for general editing and to fix any glaring errors, but issues like these that may actually expand the story once considered I usually leave out so the reader can come to this conclusion on their own instead. It is like my subconscious is time travelling and verifying the logic while I write.  I hope this makes sense, not in the specific mechanisms I use to do it perse, but kind of how I pull off writing a plausible story even while dealing with matters such as time travel.

It's basically a way of staying in line with laws- of overall logic and/or the logic of the domain I'm in.  Even if I do not consciously know these laws, subconsciously I can adhere to them.

My brain has always been a gamer, treating reality itself as a hierarchy of games, a game being defined for me as simply a system with rules.  My subconscious picks up cues from my environment, likely drawing from the scope of my entire life, and stores them in their appropriate categories.  Basically, when I focus on one subset of rules, or my environment forces me to focus on one subset of rules, that game's rules are loaded and I proceed with my task (action/reaction).  I feel like, to some degree, everyone does this. In the end this is just an appreciation for how the brain works, given the brain is, in and of itself, a system with rules. 

I would like to point out here that I do not consider people to be games, conscious life being essentially the one exception to the "games" theory for me. This is not because we are not built on game like structures with discernable rules, but because I have an appreciation for how obscured the entirety of the ruleset actually is. Not only that, but the apparent rules of conscious entities can change in a moment (emotion) and overnight (subconscious sleep learning). While it is not impossible to understand this in its apparent entirety or to a very high degree (Jesus knew what was in the hearts of men, we also see examples of con-artists who can read subtle cues to tell a lot about a person that the person did not mean to convey) if this is not an inborn trait, it takes exceptional effort to learn these "games" and even then knowing them past the point to which you have been blessed takes increasingly more effort to each degree. Essentially knowing the full rules of one entity seems like it would require the same effort as knowing the full rules of reality, with all its specificity and hidden pockets, all at once. A threshold in this is required for any interaction, and a much deeper threshold for love, but to know another in their actual entirety seems to me a fruitless pursuit that would frustrate any but God and, in its accomplishment, would likely remove some air of mystery the individual possessed up to that point, though on this I am unsure.

Back to writing using a time traveling and logic testing subconscious, I feel like there are those seeking to copy my techniques, and this technique.  I believe that they may find that copying this precise one in realtime to be... overwhelming, to say the least.  I feel like a group of any size would have trouble replicating what I do at this point.  I guess that is what could be called "consciousness security" (like job security, but for existence/life lol).

For me (from my perspective) though, if you want to be considered eternally viable by an omniscient entity, you've gotta get creative. 

10/15/22 Update: Over time I have come to appreciate that The Holy Spirit is riding sidecar with me in my writing. While my subconscious is certainly playing the role I describe here, this does not feel like something I, even at full subconscious depths, could accomplish alone, especially when it comes to moments in these annual reviews where I am astounded to find a linguistic hinge that I don't ever recall intending, for example.