Complex Cognitive Cosmology

This is a self reflective journey, connecting pieces previously thought to be disparate. In a story I wrote of entering the infinite staircase, and then releasing the mini Phoenix (left forearm tattoo) into the once empty halls. She had a specific purpose there, and while representative of a piece of me, she is also much more. In another story I reference the stairs as the connections between individual realms, a key component to my concept of infinite heaven. Translated, this could actually mean Earth. Jesus said if we believe in him, we will never see death (John). I have also written of a near death experience with the council of nine, where they described that cave and the surrounding realm as somewhere I had infinite control but could not leave, another component of my understanding of heaven and hell. In a realm where you have perfect control, it seems equally likely that you have returned from it as that you recreated it perfectly within your own reality, but believed you returned. I also wrote of my love entering my realm, me having given her both the keys and an invitation.  What if both events occurred, but unlike the choices we are presented with in life, they both occurred simultaneously? This seems to be an interesting analogy for the internal and external realities, in the mind and outside of it. This creates a complex cosmology that, in the sense of a mental construct, follows a logical structure, and personally does not seem far fetched when compared to others that I have pieced together previously. At the very least, given my core assumptions, I have no way to disprove it, and it seems like each passing thought instead reinforces it. Essentially it is saying that in some sense we are separated from our soulmates by an infinite sea, in others pieces of us intermingle everywhere in between, helping to form the structure of reality. In one sense we dream as close as skin by each other's side, and in another we are crafting a door and whispering through it, searching for the keys so that we might meet each other face to face in a place we can both call Home.