Fundamental Insanity

I had an experience yesterday that passed itself off as a moment of clarity. In this image, I was as crazy as the world has painted me, and even loved ones were of this belief. It seemed reasonable enough at the time, and may even still seem reasonable to the reader, but the afterimage is incompatible with any meaningful reality.

Consciousness must either persist forever or at some point cease. 

I have found that no one understands this, not even close. Still, it operates perfectly as my rebuttal for this experience, even if not understood, or even if fully mocked/opposed. If I am insane without reason, there is no "God's Plan." If this does not sound correct, know that I consider myself part of Jesus' flock, despite my sins in life. Do you consider this true for you? If not, this question is not for you. If yes, how do your assertions on the matter differ from my own? How many individuals will your iteration of God leave out of your personal final image of eternity? How many individuals over the course of Christian history have said things without proof, things that sounded crazy? If a Christian could separate from their own perspective for even an hour, they would find that every book of prophecy reads this way when observed entirely objectively. What better plan would Satan have than marking every modern prophet as insane, in the eyes of society? He would need to do nothing more than ink this stain, as society would carry- has carried- the weight of continuing this plan for him.

Let's say that the image presented was correct, however, what would be the conclusion? Nothing. I would experience nothing, and this phase and these words would not even be like a dream when my life concludes, they would be nothing to me. These words, your day, your first kiss, when you graduated from high school, etc. will be meaningless to you. It does not make a single bit of difference if you die rich, happy, surrounded by family and friends, etc., the moment you physically die, the meaning of all of it, and your ability to access the meaning of any of it, is nothing. Our experiences will be balanced, in that neither will have any meaning.

I've heard people retort "It will carry meaning in others." This, of course, is a logical edification that one erects to instill one with a sense of purpose. This edification will be torn down simultaneously with every other logical or emotion structure that you have erected throughout your entire life. For thoroughness though, let's assume that mankind masters immortality, or at least nearly so, and that someone with power might live for as long as their power, and their will to live, last. Imagine time traveling x years into the future, where x has exceeded not only the individual traveling, but any trace or memory of the individual. Do you think this would be 1,000 years? 1,000,000? 1,000,000,000 years? Once you had seemingly endless power, now mentioning your name is met with only ignorance. You will know that the ignorance of you will persist forevermore- the state of the universe at this juncture will mirror your own internal state at death (no one knows, no one cares), if there is no deeper seed of consciousness. If there is a deeper seed of consciousness, then my examinations into this realm are invaluable. If there is a continuance, then a man labeled crazy will persist, as well your knowledge that you may one day meet his eyes, knowing full well what beliefs you held, and possibly what actions you have taken. 

I expect this to be received about as well as every other time I've said it- met only with angry and confused ignorance and self-believed logical fallacies treated as if sound- but this time those behind this "moment of clarity" can expect exactly the same treatment, though the path to and from this shared destination will be entirely different. If you want me to consider your perspective, you must offer me some reason to believe it, otherwise you take without giving anything, and I will not be stolen from on this level.

That being said, I was made to meditate on this possibility for an entire day, so doing so and reflecting on the experience afterward is certainly possible. What if you did the same?