Complex Perspective On Birthing Pains

Isaiah 66:7-8 

“Before she goes into labor,
    she gives birth;
before the pains come upon her,
    she delivers a son.
Who has ever heard of such things?
    Who has ever seen things like this?
Can a country be born in a day
    or a nation be brought forth in a moment?
Yet no sooner is Zion in labor
    than she gives birth to her children."

Perhaps I have been looking at this Dragon of Rebirth from the wrong angle. This verse though, matching with the feel of this current phase, does seem to indicate that the "right" direction may not be accessible directly from my position, as cause and effect seem to have have lost their familiar direction in the state referenced by the verses (the "rules of this lobby", more on that below).

Isaiah 66:9

"Do I bring to the moment of birth

    and not give delivery?” says the LORD.

“Do I close up the womb

    when I bring to delivery?” says your God.

This verse is fascinating to me now, at this point along the path. I have mentioned before that it feels prudent to me to take questions as questions in the Bible, not inserting what seems to be the most obvious answer, thus allowing a crossroads to form in my mind regarding possible scenarios, based on possible answers to the question (a field of results, rather than a line). I just realized today, with the concept of complex perspectives on my mind, that each of these questions is attributed to a different name for God- YHWH and Elohim (Elohayik? I am no Hebrew expert, but this word seems like it may be Elohim but with the modifier built into the word of your God). This would make this pairing of verses not repetition- perhaps thought to be included this way for emphasis or to paint a picture- but an interaction of perspectives, a cross examination in potentially a complex field not often seen (It is unclear to me how YHWH and Elohim might overlap if I were to observe them as a human, for example, but they would certainly also have areas where they do not overlap, otherwise I can't understand why multiple names/identifiers would be necessary). 

As I read these questions, I am picturing a moment fixed in time, locked by The LORD(/)God. Each has a processing matrix prepared, and they are ready to query their own perspective within omniscience at the right time. As an aside, this is an interesting idea to me- multiple omniscient perspectives existing. It reminds me, a lot now, of a dream that I had about two dragons that needed to agree on reality, and did so automatically and constantly behind the scenes. This system, which seemed fundamental, could be overcome by creating enough of a time gap between observations to allow for a change (this involved overloading the system with perspective interactions to observe simultaneously). This verse, graciously flagged today in my mind, shows a delicate balance where it looks like this system frustration is designed to occur, which I believe is why this section is talking about birth. It just made sense to me why Jesus said in John 3:7 "'You should not be surprised at my saying, "You must be born again."'" and in John 3:10 “'You are Israel’s teacher," said Jesus, 'and do you not understand these things?'" I will admit, much like baptism, I could not figure out what threads Jesus connected to come to such a certain conclusion that rebirth is declared in Scripture. Even seeing verses like this one, drawing lines of metaphor (reality crafting through word) between a nation and a pregnant woman, and referencing birth, I did not see this lock type interaction, indicating indirectly that it was the reader who would be reborn, if The Word of God interfaced with them (was known, past a threshold degree). 

Returning to the "lock" that I reference, consider the LORD's permutations here: "Do I bring to the moment of birth and not give delivery?” I first saw this as reassuring, when I did not look at the permutations and only felt God indicating that thus will not fail. Then there was a time when I saw these permutations in questions, and this one stood out amongst the rest, as it potentially includes possible paths where The LORD answers "yes." At that juncture, this verse was actually horrifying, illuminating the possibility of remaining locked endlessly from life. If yes and no were simply a matter of chance here, it feels as if the terror present in the system overall would be overwhelming. Overlaying this with "God is love" (1 John 4:8) however, it does not make sense that an even distribution of yes and no exist, indicating to me that this equation is not run by The LORD in the wrong circumstances. I am picturing God here comprehending the perspective of the timeline that would be created if an answer is given when the question is asked, and then choosing to answer or not, and choosing how to answer, based on the true nature of love. 

God, Elohim, has a similar but not identical question "Do I close up the womb when I bring to delivery?” Again, there is a striking difference between allowing chance to decide this answer, and only answering when the answer is a boon. It feels as though one can query The Bible, or their own belief system if it is based on The Bible, and I am picturing something like a lobby where a question can be answered, formed from a structure of beliefs and words intertwined with it. It seems like a number of the "rules" in each room would depend on who is participating, and this structure of two perspectives (a complex perspective?) of God standing in this room (like guards?) feels like these rules would be quite cut and dry (a no nonsense lobby, even for one such as myself). In this case though this feels like a confirmation button, like a signal that labor can proceed, from the reader's perspective (much like a human baby seems to need to signal in the womb, in some way). The process appears simple: ask these questions; the systems gets queried (I feel like an omniscient perspective would actually handle this differently, with no "work" required like a time bound perspective might experience)- belief, word, product of these domains. If both answers come back as needed then the answers are given and something new occurs. I could also see such careful preparation being found in this room because this "something new" is likely a gate to new ages, meaning even a presently timeless perspective would likely need to make adjustments in this timeframe, so as not to lose track of the other in that one (now it feels like the adding of a layer, so two might walk together in any age)

I feel as though I could explain this better, but there is a latent sense of excitement building within me regarding this insight, so I have gathered and structured what I can.