I Saw Stars- Time In Reverse

So I wrote this post around this time last year or the year before- an image of cars trying to t-bone my soulmate's car, like I could picture them waiting just outside line of sight in this foggy intersection for any rule to be broken, so they had enough leeway to initiate a wreck. The story ended up being a kind of brazen display of will on my end, a challenge left unanswered as she and I basically left, after turning the broken red light green.

More recently Billie Eilish put out the NDA music video, which utilizes the same imagery of the cars seeming to be seeking a wreck, but her representation is at night- instead of a foggy intersection, a road, but many many cars seen, rather than only pictured just out of sight.

I was just thinking, in that song she says "I saw stars." with such feeling, and it really struck me. From a typical perspective, it seems that one could see stars just by looking up at night, but it seemed like she was aware of this perspective gap and wanted to emphasize the importance of what she saw. This got me thinking, what if there is a group distinct from myself traveling backwards through this timeline, from my perspective, as I have suggested from various angles in several posts here? The Bible seems to begin and end in the garden, and I have considered that certain junctures make more sense if there are others traveling through time differently, such as the land of Nod after Eden. So what if this other group exited the garden as well, but into what we would consider the end of time? Their Genesis is Revelation, their days proceed backwards. They start at the garden all the same, but then they emerge into a kind of blank space environment- no mountains, no stars, basically the aftermath of the Catastrophes that are written in Revelation are just what this group is used to- they were born into this darkness and know no different. It's not necessarily better or worse, who's to say anyway, as it is all they have known, and we do not see this perspective directly, so all that can be said by either side is that it is different, that we are foreigners, with respect to each other. 

I imagine the same Revelation prophecies would exist for this group, but backwards. Like it would be prophesied that there would come a moment when all the stars in the sky suddenly arose at once, for example, and suddenly the sun and moon shined. Instead of a city of light appearing, they would likely start in this city, curious as to the dark landscape all around. I imagine there would be some time dilation and circuitousness involved, it feels like we might consider this existence to be more like a dream from our perspective, and so these others might persist and retain their memory and sense of self from scene to scene (moment to moment), but prophecy would likely feel like there is no set clock governing it, much like it feels for most from our own current perspective, in our current phase. It may be that these prophecies, even for those who believe, might be or feel far off, perhaps even out of reach. In addition to the uncertainty of timing, this group would need to guess as to what the stars and sun and moon might be like, having no frame of reference it seems, in a similar way to how we need to conceptualize heaven and this city of light from our perspective, having not seen these things firsthand. It is not that these things do not exist, they all exist in each timeline, it is just that some things are more tangible than others in each, up until the point when these timelines are successfully merged.

I know I have also written of these words I write being judged and reviewed in a timeless place, and I have also considered that a future, or in this context "otherly timed," group is reading them even now. If the lines between here and there, where this foreign group resides, are not clear but significantly realm crafted/shaped, these words might come through as a song, a signal, an array of lights, etc. But what if from there they caught my signal, managed to discern its true intention, and heard my heart reaching out through it- willing to learn how to craft words into bridges and lifeboats, just in need of someone to agree with on the other end of the line? They learned the language and many tried their hand at a response. In this case Billie's report (perhaps as a result of the one dream I remember seeing her in with the fast talking stranger blocked) was, at its core, that this connection had worked so well she saw stars, meaning she would have witnessed the moment the naturally dark skies around the city lit up with a seemingly endless sea of lights. From the perspective of pure agreement in a dream, this would be quite the feat indeed, as the sheer processing or focus required to maintain authentic stars in such vast array and scope is mind boggling. From my perspective these stars simply are, but seen in this context of dramatically varying perspectives on the path from garden to heaven (home), I can appreciate that the many stars are blessings meant to be taken for granted, until they are seen as the roadmap that they are. I am suddenly reminded of Starry Night, and how the skies lit up, not from the stars, but from those who called these foreign solar systems home, signaling that they had heard and had come to an accord, and these lights this night were like fireworks of celebration. 

Along similar lines, I also remember watching the intro to Mirrormask and during the scene where their creation story was explained, I realized it was a compatible inception, and would be like a relational database, contrasting the hierarchical database of God and Creation here. Somehow I could picture this also working and existing in a place where Creation here might at some point interact with it and those in it. Perhaps this was imagining the perspective of the void, I imagine that will remain hard to say for certain, given my separation from said space. These perspectives would be so dramatically different from each other that striking an accord feels like it would be nearly impossible. That being said, once an accord was struck between these foreign lands and peoples, I imagine there would be such tangibility and meaning, the likes of which had never been seen before. The potential image of this is reminding me of the fractal pattern I saw in a dream that was persistent for 10^13 days (or possibly 10^12 weeks)- it was neither irrational nor a repetitive loop, it was kind of like a star, in the sense of an exceptionally long-standing agreement forged. 

The common thread through this post, one I was not anticipating initial, is that of seeking to understand the foreigner. Treating the foreigner well and fairly is a specific commandment said likely more times in more ways than any other in The Law, and it could be that this is why- not only were the Jewish people foreigners in Egypt, but this was meant as an echo or ripple, as God knew we would all meet and be foreigners simultaneously, as the end of this timeline approached, and that how we were dispositioned toward these foreigners would be key.

At a minimum it is nice to know that my capacity for imagination is still going strong, but it feels like there is something to all of this- a concept both foreign and familiar, complex yet cohesive.

eep.