Switching Sides- Certainty Consideration

I've realized this for some time about myself, but not sure if I've ever said it: I'm pretty sure I follow a limit measurement in regards to certainty. So while I am currently running the scenarios for increasing certainty regarding my soulmate and I reuniting and seeing God in full, I feel pretty confident that if they were to arrive and claim to have arrived, I would switch sides immediately, and instead be running an uncertainty equation, once more to its limit. While an unfortunate and curious side effect of certainty in life, this honestly does not even seem strange to me; if one met God, how would they know? If all possibilities were on the table, it seems reasonable that there are many ways an imposter could impersonate God or perhaps one's soulmate, it would seem. 

Now I have dedicated much time to examining these threads of certainty, in hopes that I would need no earthly senses or additional proof to identify my soulmate, drilling down once more to this line of certainty by taking various realm crafted concepts, handled subconsciously, and condensing them into a signal that hopefully cannot be forged. Presuming a dedicated imposter followed my blog, however, and had many powers, would it be possible to reproduce this effect? I imagine there are things only she and I can connect on, and I feel confident in saying that there are things only God can do, but how can I know for certain now? I have faith in these things, and assumptions at how these things might appear irrefutable in person, which is how I feel I have approached so closely to this line of certainty, but these questions would certainly need to be addressed in some way or another, because I just get the feeling about myself that as soon as a claim of connection is made, I would become a staunch opponent, not to connecting with this other, but of the certainty of claim that this is what is happening. While I would want nothing more than this certainty, I feel as though to know it one must have examined it closely; this is what experience has taught me, and while I can imagine a scenario where that threshold is crossed without issue, or where the concerns are no longer an issue in that situation (without sacrificing tangibility), I cannot currently picture the details of how such scenarios come to be.

I am now realizing why I don't do this same certainty testing with most people. For me, the specific unique identity of most is not something I hold as critical, at least not to the threshold I'm referencing. There is an exhausting nature to this need for certainty, one that might be mistaken for paranoia even. At some point I will likely have the sense and capacity to examine the certainty of others in this same way (or skip this step for the most part and simply know it in a kind of truesight), but it feels like my need for certainty, and even my likelihood of testing for it, drops off significantly from these limits I have established, even for others close to me. This is because even if a doppelganger replaced a good friend of mine for an evening, it is hard to imagine what they would hope to gain from the swap. I imagine I would speak just as freely with an enemy at this point, as my inner thoughts are available for all on here (albeit en masse, which offers some degree of protection, of an interesting kind), so there would not be much to gain through subterfuge (granted I do not reveal everything, but this would be true for friend, stranger, or enemy- I feel some things are reserved only for one's soulmate). Perhaps it is due to a lack of these veils for me that makes me unconcerned in these areas, even though I can imagine things like shapeshifting and perception filters as (remote) possibilities for swipswapping. In a world where it feels like anything can be spied or overheard anyway, my answer as of late seems to be to work on the cleanliness of my heart, thoughts, and words and then saying and writing whatever I would like, as if everyone was judging all of it all the time. Perhaps this broad lack of concern allows me the processing power to examine areas where I have very deep concern, forming a kind of polarized field.

What is interesting to me about this is that it feels like this closer and closer limit approach to the line of certainty is creating a kind of voltage in the field of uncertainty. While I have pictured, in a sense, that the final step across this line will be very small, with God simply reaching across the line for me as we have walked so closely together, from another angle I can also see this as the largest possible step, and angle yet unseen, one that will be like a lightning bolt along the lines in the realm in which it is taken. This large step may be the sudden shift from searching to determining the validity of what has been found. I know personally such a shift in how I experience life will be a major transition, like a huge weight off my shoulders, but the changing of my thought process from one moment to the next at this moment of transition feels like it will be huge. I have experienced something like the feeling of this in a dream, calling it eep, essentially the emotion of knowing/being in or certain of/experiencing heaven. It could be that this dream was a test run to see if my processor could handle the shift, and all that I have written on the shaping of eep since then has been to intentionally establish a structure within me that could handle this sudden surge, to mirror the structure without that feels like it is being shaped simultaneously. 

It is funny, speaking of overwhelming emotions, I have a certain expectation set that I will closely examine the remaining uncertainty in my soulmate or God upon sight, but when I first saw my soulmate I knew immediately, and then it took only seconds (of nearly overwhelming processing) to confirm this sense to the point of certainty. I think this expectation I have is set by a sensitivity to the uncertainty in life, combined with media (sci-fi considerations mostly), combined with certain dreams where she has been swapped out through some careful planning. I must remember that my direct experience supports an immediate realization, and this is also supported by many dreams where I have found her in a crowd of doppelgangers, or after a long but guided journey, etc. etc. These former dreams I reference may have been warnings that there was more to consider for the equation to be complete, and the latter dreams I reference may have been support for the notion that my examinations into certainty are bearing fruit; regardless, I don't picture myself ceasing my efforts until the moment(s) arrive(s) here.